Give me a Verse, Lord

“Neither this man nor his parents sinned,” said Jesus, “but this happened so that the works of God might be displayed in him.” John 9:3

I don’t feel good today. This crazy weather has my body hurting and now the blackness of depression lingers over me. I reach for the scriptures. Psalm 51. There must be a sin that I need to confess. I pray the words as if they were my own, and they help but don’t take away everything. I turn on praise and worship music and listen to my favorite tunes. I’m free to live for you is one of the lyrics, and I believe it for a minute. I know I will forget it and my blues will be back.

Very frustrating.

I ask that Lord for a verse to meditate on. He gives me John 9:3. “Lord, that’s the verse? You got to be kidding me,” I say. There has to be another verse about trusting the Lord, releasing sin, or relaxing in Jesus’ arms that I can hold on to. But John 9:3? That is a verse I use in ministry to talk about how God can use people living with disabilities, not for something so ordinary as my blues.

I take another look at the verse. It’s not my sin that has me down. No, this happened so that the works of the Lord might be displayed through me, Verse four goes on to say, “as long as it is day, we must do the works of him who sent me.” Jesus goes on in verse five and says, “I am the light of the world.”

Whatever is going on with me this morning is not because of sin or lack of trust. This happened so that the works Jesus might be seen through me.  And, get this. Unlike my disability, which is permanent, this is just one moment. Jesus will heal this. He is still the light of the world, and we have work to do. I can live with that.

Maybe you’re in the same boat. You may not feel good or your sins are surrounding you. Breathe, and know that Jesus is not done with you yet.